So how do you condense a whole weekend of seminars, classes, conversations, and other experiences into a couple of blogs.... you don't. So instead I'll just ramble for a bit on what I believe God to be impressing upon me, trusting all the while that most likely, no one will read this anyway.
One thing that is for sure, God is much bigger than I ever imagined. Now, this isn't to say that I've been keeping Him in a box, just that my ability to imagine is growing more and more every day. I'm excited about that! He is big, BIG, HUGE!! He is amazing, wonderful, awe-inspiring, awesome, and I have to stop because I'm now starting to feel as if I'm doing Him a great injustice with the littleness of my words. My descriptive imagination still has a way to go after all.
Some words I can use, He is good. He is so good. He is love, not just in a theoretical sense, but in a very real sense.
I know this to be true.
Again, not merely intellectually, but I've experienced His love. This is where I believe that heaven and earth kiss, in the soul. When God breathes life into our spirit and we step out of the graves of self, when our minds begin to understand the realities of who God is and who I am now in Him, then I become not a spiritual creature, but no longer physical either, instead there is a third reality, I step into the eternal.
I have a beginning, but I have no end. I cannot see God with my eyes, but I see the reality of Him everywhere. I am not like Christ today, but I am more like Him in this moment than I was in the last. I am not sinless, but my sin account looks much like a bucket with no bottom. I am not perfect, but I am being perfected. I know in part, but I am fully known. I have to say that again, I am fully known. And desired. And cherished. I am loved.
This is my role as husband and father and friend and youth minister and mentor and worship leader and...and....and....and.....and..... This is my role to fully embrace who I am in Christ. To fully embrace the person that God intends for me to be. To fully embrace the passionate pursuit of knowing Him.
It is only in this that I will be able to personify who He is to the world. It is only in this that I will begin to decrease so that He might increase. It is only in this that I will see a new reality in my life, a reality that Paul spoke of in II Corinthians 5, "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come. All this is from God, who through Christ reconciled us to himself and gave us the ministry of reconciliation; that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself, not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting to us the message of reconciliation. Therefore, we are ambassadors for Christ, God making his appeal through us..."
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